one minute everythings going fine, the next minute you dont even know what to do or what gonna happen.
things are good:) what have you been up to?
We’ve been waiting for over a year to live close to each other, and now that it’s finally happening, why does the universe need to be fucking shitty and mess it all up?? I’m really trying not to be insensitive to what is going on because it is not my intention to be rude or out of line, but I wish all of this was not happening and I wish everyone could just be happy and things could be a little bit easier.
You’ve been planning to move for a long time now, and when you drop the bomb on me all of the sudden that you might not come then how do you expect me to feel?! You have no idea how much I do for you. And I know I probably say that more than you’d like but it’s true and I wish you would fuckin appreciate that. I helped you apply for school, reminded you
To do everything for school like deal with transcripts, helped you look for jobs, bought you things for when you moved, and I’ve spent so much time looking for a place for you and going to check them out, like wtf?! I know this is not your fault but seriously put yourself in my shoes, how the fuck do you expect me to feel?!
I don’t know. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m just afraid that if you don’t move here and if we don’t end up living closer then it could put a huge strain on our relationship and eventually bring it to an end. Don’t get me wrong, I love him more than the world, In fact I would marry him if he asked me.. But the long distance is too hard and we don’t even Skype anymore and the only reason I’m okay with it is because he was gonna move here but if he’s not then what? Idk…. There’s just alot of things to think about. Life’s a bitch sometimes, I wish things could just be easy for once