We’ve been waiting for over a year to live close to each other, and now that it’s finally happening, why does the universe need to be fucking shitty and mess it all up?? I’m really trying not to be insensitive to what is going on because it is not my intention to be rude or out of line, but I wish all of this was not happening and I wish everyone could just be happy and things could be a little bit easier.
You’ve been planning to move for a long time now, and when you drop the bomb on me all of the sudden that you might not come then how do you expect me to feel?! You have no idea how much I do for you. And I know I probably say that more than you’d like but it’s true and I wish you would fuckin appreciate that. I helped you apply for school, reminded you
To do everything for school like deal with transcripts, helped you look for jobs, bought you things for when you moved, and I’ve spent so much time looking for a place for you and going to check them out, like wtf?! I know this is not your fault but seriously put yourself in my shoes, how the fuck do you expect me to feel?!
I don’t know. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m just afraid that if you don’t move here and if we don’t end up living closer then it could put a huge strain on our relationship and eventually bring it to an end. Don’t get me wrong, I love him more than the world, In fact I would marry him if he asked me.. But the long distance is too hard and we don’t even Skype anymore and the only reason I’m okay with it is because he was gonna move here but if he’s not then what? Idk…. There’s just alot of things to think about. Life’s a bitch sometimes, I wish things could just be easy for once

Okay, well this is my 69th post, so I have to make it sexual lol. Whenever I tell people that you live far and I only get to see you about once a month if I’m lucky, alot of people comment that we must have sex alot when we see each other lol. Well, yes we do have sex alot but our relationship isn’t all about sex (well obviously since we’re long distance). However, I must say I do love having sex with you so much. There’s been so many times when I wish we could have just laid in bed all day making love and being Intimate together. It wasn’t until I was wish you that I understood sex on a deeper level then just sticking your dick in me because it felt good. When I have sex with you, I feel emotions and feelings that I had never felt before. You made me understand sex in a must deeper way (literally mwahaha loll). making love with you for the first time was one of the most beautifully amazing things I’ve ever done. I can’t describe the exact way I felt, but it’s almost as of we were one. I was fully focused on you, on us, and nothing else in the world mattered. Every kiss and every touch was magnified with love and passion, and as I touched your skin I felt an overwhelming sense of togetherness and security. As you went in and out of me I would close my eyes to focus on you and what was going on, and every moan expressed how good everything felt, mentally and physically. Another thing I love is the way you make me orgasm. You make me orgasm better than I make myself orgasm sometimes. Maybe it’s just that you know what I like, but I love what you do to me and nothing’s sexier than the fact that you can turn me on so much. You are the first person to ever make me orgasm from sex, and the fact that ill be having sex with you for the rest of my life makes me one happy lucky girl. Even though we can’t be intimate often since we don’t get to see each other as much as we both would like, it’s so worth the wait. see you in nine days ;) mwah

we’ve had a long distance relationship for over a year, and although it is something that many people say they could not or would not do, it is completely worth it to me. i just have to have patience, which is something i have little of at times. sometimes when i look at couples, i feel sad or even jealous that they get to see each other all the time and they don’t even realize how lucky they are in that aspect since they haven’t been in a situation like ours. although its hard not being able to see you when I’m  lonely or hug you when i’m sad, i’ve learned to deal with the fact that our relationship is long distance which makes us less accessible to each other physically. i say physically because even though i can not always be with you, you’re always with me emotionally. over time, the distance has gotten easier to cope with, however, i always have these days when i just get sad from how much i miss you and wish you could be with me at that very moment just so i could merely hold you or kiss you or even brush my hands against your skin, just the little things. this is one of those days. i miss you so much, and i wish you could be here with me. i find myself longing for you and the fact that you’ll be here in two weeks is what i’m telling myself to make me less sad that you’re across the country instead of in my arms. i love you, babe.

I started off my spring break by going to ultra in Miami! (Like the day I got off the plane lol) with my babes and his friend Kevin :) it was soo fun and it was so surreal that I was actually there! If it weren’t for my amazing boyfriend I don’t think I would have ever gone. He said that we would find a way to go and we did:) whenever he says something, even if it sounds crazy or sounds like something that won’t really happen he always ends up keeping his word which is a really good trait of his. Anyways, the sets were amazing and I had so much fun hanging out and listening to the good music. I’m so lucky I had the opportunity to go, and it’s all because of my babes that i got the chance to go:) my favorite part of the whole time is when we were laying on the grass at night listening to the set and holding hands. I remember laying on the grass as I held his hand and listened to the music as I starred up at the beautiful stars and thought about how certain I was that he was the man that I want to spend the rest of my life with. And in that moment, everything just felt so right

I had the most amazing spring break ever. I just got back from spending 10 days in beautiful Florida with my amazing boyfriend and everyday was awesome! (Although for some reason I didn’t really get tan even though I tried its because I’m Asian meh).
I fall in love with you more and more everyday, and this trip brought us closer together in a way that I could not explain, it just happened:) and it’s ironic that you pointed that out this morning because I was thinking that on the plane yesterday. I’m sorry that I was difficult at times while I was there:/ I’m so lucky that I have someone like you that will love me at good times as well as hard times, always trying to fix the problem. You’re the reason why we’ve never been in a fight for more than a couple hours (which I find pretty impressive btw hehe). Anyways, I had an amazing trip and it could not have been any more perfect. You’re my everything mwah

And all I can think about is how much I wish you were here cuddling with me as I listen to the raindrops outside

But I just can’t sleep. It’s because I took an adderall to stay up and study for a test>_< as I lay in bed trying to get some sleep before I have to get up for school, all I can think about Is spring break in a couple weeks!! Florida is going to be absolutely amazing, and I get to spend my break with my absolute favorite person ever!:) all I do is think about all the fun things we’re gonna do! I csnt wait for it all! I keep Thinking about Going to ultra one of the days (ahh!!!!) going snorkeling for my first time hehe, going on dates, going to the beach, and just hanging out doing all the little things that couple that live close take for granted like cuddling together and watching movies together and making food and kissing him whenever I want. It’s only two weeks away, I keep telling myself. I’m so blessed to have someone that loves me and spoils me by doing things like surprising me with ultra tickets and taking me snorkeling. I just can’t wait to get off the plane and see him in the airport waiting for me smiling as I walk towards him and giving me a big hug and kiss when he sees me like he usually does, I live for moments like those

This one might be a little shorter but its short and to the point about something ive been thinking about. I love you for always putting up with me and making things work even when it is hard sometimes with opposite schedules, time differences, and Not being able to skype that much. I know we’ve both been busy and have not been able to have quality Skype time lately, but you always make a big effort to always talk to me whenever you can and make things work the best you can, and I love you for that. I know long distance isn’t easy, but the fact that you’re such an amazing boyfriend makes it all so much easier. Sometimes I wonder how I managed to get so lucky with such an amazing guy like you!

when you told me you wanted to get another tattoo or your tattoo shaded, I was super excited for you because I know you had been waiting to get your most recent piece shaded (plus you look hot af with your tats hehe). But then when I called you at work and you told me what you wanted to get, I was so surprised and happy and flattered all at the same time. The fact that you wanted to get the date of our anniversary Tatted on you touched me, and I was so excited to see it. After it was done and I got to see it, it was absolutely perfect. The fact that you got a tattoo of that meant so much to me and really touched me. It showed your commitment to our relationship and your love for me, and I can’t wait to show my love for you as well when I get it too:) I love you so much and I love the tattoo also! Your the best boyfriend I could ever hope for and I love you from the bottom of my heart.

Ill post a pic of the tattoo after ~~

And things just don’t feel quite right. He should be here, he belongs here
:(