Ahhhh I can’t even wait I just want school to be over so I can go home, pack, and pick him up from the airport!!! Hehehehhehe so excited omggg

Today I was thinking about what things were like when I used to be single. I was thinking about how when I was single I would be looking for a perfect guy that I could love and would love me back with the perfect love. The perfect love referring to a type of love that was genuine, trustworthy, real, and forever. Then I started to smile to myself because you are that guy. There’s no need to ever search again because I have everything I could ever want right in front of me. Im such a lucky girl to have found the love of my life so early in life, because that means that not only do I need to go through multiple more years of bad guys, but it also means that I get to experience more years with you.

I know I’m not a perfect girlfriend, and I know I do things sometimes that make you mad or upset with me. I know I don’t make you happy 100% of the time and I know I can be very difficult, but through it all you’ve always been by my side. In order to experience me at my best, you must be able to love me through my worst, and that you do. You stick by my side no matter what and I couldn’t think of a more loyal and loving boyfriend. You’re so understanding and you and caring and forgiving. I’m sorry for the times that I do stupid things, I’m far from perfect . I’m glad we have a strong relationships and that I feel like we can get through anything. Youre the best boyfriend I could ever hope for, I love you.

now i know we’ve always talked about you moving, but the fact that you’re actually doing it now (in summer) makes me soooo excited omg!! im really hoping my uncle says yes (to living with him) because that would be such a perfect situation:)) i cant wait to live close to you and get to see you all the time. the thought of that happening seems like such a dream come true and it makes me so overly excited every time i even think about it! its step 1 in our future plans, step 2 being when we eventually actually move in together!! im so excited for the future, and i can already tell that this is going to be an amazing summer. according to my countdown, you’ll be here (to stay) in 108 days!! omg dying. summer, come faster!

while i was in orlando, i got news during lunch one afternoon that my grandpa passed away the previous night in his sleep. i was such a wreck i didn’t know what to do with myself. i was in shock. i don’t know what i would have done if he was not there to help me through it all. i was able to talk to him about it, cry it out in his arms, and let out all of my emotions in a healthy way. i don’t know what i would have done if he was not there to help me deal with this loss. through my impulsive crying to my cynical outlook on life, he was there for me and never let me stray away into a bad place. i was an absolute emotional (annoying at times) wreck, and i love him so much for putting up with it all and always being there for me 100% with complete understanding and patience. he is always there for me, through the good times and the bad, and sometimes i wonder how i got so blessed with such an amazing guy by my side. he has no idea how touched i was and how much it meant to me that he was there for me through the whole ordeal. he’s my everything

One thing I’ve noticed about you that I absolutely love and admire is how even in the midst of a fight or argument we may be in, you are still nice to me. When I say this, an example that comes to mind is when we were in Tahoe and we got in a big fight on the way to Chevys. Even when we were in Chevys, I was still mad at you and ignoring you and even though I was being mean you decided to do something nice and tell them it was my birthday so that they would sing the happy birthday to me because you knew I would like that. Even in the midst of our big fight, you were still kind and thoughtful towards me. That trait about it is selfless and one of the many things about you that make me fall in love with you more and more everyday.

One of the great privileges I had while spending spring break with him was getting to spend Christmas with him as well as my birthday and New Years. It was amazing getting to spend those holidays with him in Florida, and there’s no better way I would have rather spent it. While I was spending that time with him, I remember I was thinking about that time last year when I wished I had been with him, and I specifically remember that on New Year’s Eve the previous year, we told each other that the next New Years would be spent together, and we did:) my favorite memory from Christmas was seeing him open his presents, my favorite memory from my birthday was when his family surprised me with a cake and going to dayglow, and my favorite part of New Years was laying on the hammock and watching the long fireworks show that some rich ass neighbors did then falling asleep to it (even though ants attacking my back). I can’t wait until we live together and can spend every holiday in each others company, I couldn’t imagine anything more amazing

This post is long overdue (sorry, I’ve been slackin). I can say without hesitation that I had the most amazingly wonderful winter break. I got to spend a whole month with my babes, both in Florida at his house and in Davis at my apartment. Our time together starting on Christmas (which was the best Christmas present I could possibly ask for) and our time was spent together until the morning of January 20th. Before this trip, I kept thinking about how this will be sort of a “test” in a way to see how we react to spending so much time together since that Was our longest time together yet. With each passing day as I woke up next to him in bed, I would get overwhelmingly happy and thankful that I have such an amazing man in my life. There was not one moment that I got sick of him, and although we had our fighting moments there was not one moment that I doubted whether we would get past it. This trip reaffirmed that we are meant to be together, and I would like nothing more than to wake up next to him for the rest of my life

as I’m waiting in the Arizona airport to shortly board the plane that will
take me to Florida, I can’t even contain my excitement. I counted down from around 60 loooong days for this day to come, and I can’t even explain how excited I am to finally see my babes soon!!!! omg I’m dying, just get me to Florida already damnit! I’m hoping I knock out This whole flight lol, such an amazing Christmas (second Christmas heheh) yet to come^_^ see you sooon babes!

although this has been a horrible Christmas with the shittiest brothers ever (so far), this is going to be the most amazing Christmas with the most amazing boyfriend in the world! even more than Christmas in the morning all I can think about is the fact that I’m about to be with my babes soon! I can’t wait to give him his presents and spend my favorite holiday with the most important person in my life. I wouldn’t have It any other way. although my Christmas experience at home hasn’t been the best, all I want is Christmas with my baby^_^

I’ve been watching episodes of the office tonight because I like to watch it when Im really missing you. this show reminds me of you because you watch it all the time and because it reminds me of when we would watch lots and lots of episodes together in bed, laughing all the time. I feel like these past few days have been going by so slow and I just want to see you already! grr only a couple days >_

tonight as I started to get your presents together to wrap, I started to think about Christmas and how exciting it is that this will be our first Christmas together^_^ (together in a literal way, of course). I can’t wait to do little cute Christmas things with you like drink hot chocolate and watch Christmas movies and listen to Christmas songs (with me singing along because you looove my voice!!) lol. although, the thing I am excited for more than anything is you opening my presents (I’m sorry I got a little too excited and gave some of them away). I can’t wait to see the look on your face and the smile that I will know I made you do. I would do anything to make you happy and I know you would for me as well. I know you’ll love all of the presents I gave you. I spoiled you this year!! hehe. but who cares the look on your face when you open it will make it all so worth it. I can’t wait to spend my first Christmas with you In a couple days, I couldn’t be happier :)